Monday, 20 January 2014

Wish List Stuff :)

Cotton dungarees from Envie de Fraises $87

Memphis bootcut jeans (long fit) from Wet Seal $29

Minecraft animal totem t-shirt from Jinx

Past Your Bedtime t-shirt from Woot Shirts

Striped Slub t-shirt from Calvin Klein $7.80

Stone wash flannel-lined jeans from Berne Apparel $33

Woodland Wanderlust Large Native Style Handwoven Dreamcatcher
One-of-a-kind dreamcatcher - Woodland Wanderlust $139 by eenk

Knitted Top - Grey Marle from Hop Options / Target $20

Room Essentials® Clear Globe Lights (25ct)
Clear globe lights (25) from Target $12.99

How To Kill A Zombie vest from DarkSide Clothing $30

Multi-stripe top from BHS $16

Gypsum Sneaker from Lugz $56

Red stripe woollen socks from J-Shoppe 






Some cool stuff from a new online shop I found (Romwe.com)!

Black Long Sleeve Deers Print Pocket Front Hoodie
Deer-print hoodie from Romwe

ROMWE Simple Long-sleeved Gray Hoodie
Simple grey goodie from Romwe $25AUD

ROMWE Forest Animals Dark Grey Long-sleeved Sweatshirt
Forest Animals sweatshirt from Romwe $35

ROMWE Black & White Color-block Long-sleeves Dress
Black & White colour block dress from Romwe $40


66 Print t-shirt $32

ROMWE Elk Striped Print Long-sleeved Cotton Coat
Elk print cotton coat from Romwe $42

Sunday, 12 January 2014

Sneak preview of Ryleigh/Reilly

It's nearly dawn. The air feels cool and it's real quiet...expect for the kids I'm with. We're off our faces on cheap pot and paint fumes. I have a curfew at midnight but fuck that, right? I've been thrown from foster home to the streets then back to more foster homes. Next month, when I turn 14, they're moving me into a house with other kids like me. My case worker said it's real strict and we can't leave even if we want to. I'm trying not to think about it.

My friend Charlie puts his arm around my shoulder and passes me the joint he just lit up. I have a toke and focus instead on the harsh burn in my throat and lungs. I exhale and start to feel a little more relaxed. Charlie smiles as me, his cheeks dimpling, and he takes back the joint. He's an alright guy: heavy-set and always looking out for the rest of us, especially me. I think he actually might give a shit about whether I feel good or not, unlike most people. He's flawed like all of us, though, with a wicked temper and too quick to throw punches. Patty, sharp-minded and quick on his feet, runs to the front of the group and shouts out that we should head down to the skate park. Patty can charm nearly anyone he meets, and is good with his hands. He can pretty much get anything he likes, from skipping chores and getting extra money, to getting cigarettes and blowjobs. He prides himself in supplying the rest of us with anything we need or want: alcohol, drugs, porn, switchblades, you name it. Ask and ye shall receive.

Horribly hungover...

I drank way too much last night. I wanted to stop but everyone else was still drinking and telling me to keep going, too. We played King's Cup and did neknominations and played beer pong, too. I threw up twice but kept going. Everyone wanted me to. I know that it's up to me in the end and that I shouldn't give in to peer pressure, but too late now right? Today has been pretty horrible, but I only threw up once more and it's only been bad coz of my headache and coz I'm so tired. Just gonna try and get a bit of homework done and prepare for TAFE tomorrow and hopefully get an early-ish night.

Friday, 10 January 2014

Jan 8-10th food diary

These are my fully completed food diary values for three days :) Gonna keep aiming to fill in all the foods I eat to help keep track
Goals/day: 
Calories: 1200 | Carbs: 150g | Fat: 40g | Protein: 60g | Sodium: 2300mg | Sugar: 45g
Under these limits = green
Over these limits = red

January 8th
Calories: 1278 | Carbs 168g | Fat 30g | Protein 23g | Cholesterol 3mg | Sodium 305mg | Sugar 65g

January 9th
Calories: 1128 | Carbs: 157g | Fat: 45g | Protein: 19g | Cholesterol: 0mg | Sodium: 1629mg | Sugar: 66g

January 10th
Calories: 1433 | Carbs: 189g | Fat: 48g | Protein: 63g | Cholesterol: 30mg | Sodium: 2003mg | Sugar: 61g

I'm overshooting my calorie, carb, and fat limits regularly...but not by much! My sugar intake is waaaay too high, though. Sodium and cholesterol seem okay. I can't even think of where to cut back sugar in my diet, though. From my stats I can see that I generally need more protein, especially since I don't eat meat.

Monday, 6 January 2014

Bum thinspo

Figured I could post some bum thinspo next, as I've collected quite a few good photos. Again, I'll try to put the credit of the girls in the photos wherever I know who they are. Enjoy!



 t.A.T.u (Lena Katina and Yulia Volkova)



 Laney Chantal
A roller derby chick that I assume is named "Vominatrix" from an unknown derby team
Check the URL
Rooney Mara as Lisbeth Salander in The Girl With The Dragon Tattoo


Saturday, 4 January 2014

Being 'healthy' isn't working?!

I've been trying to eat really well for the past few weeks, and I actually did some exercise today. But I'm still exhausted, can't sleep, and feel like shit. I've been upping my water intake too, but all that's done has made me need to pee all the time. My head and jaw hurt, and my legs and chest hurt. I can't concentrate. Plus school is starting again Monday. Am I supposed to be noticing a difference? My weight has dropped a little, about half a kilo, but my stomach feels so stretched and wide and fat. Is it bad that I want to be an in-patient? I want to hide away, I want to be safe. I want friends who will accept me for who I am. Please?

Friday, 3 January 2014

An assignment I'm horribly stressed about...

At the current time I'm highly concerned that this assignment will NOT get done on time. Given the timeline that had been planned, and considering the amount of work that has been done so far, I don't think we will be able to meet any deadlines. I feel as if no one else is making an effort to do any work. Things have only gotten done when I did them myself. Nearly all contact that I'm aware of has been initiated by me, and replies have been minimal if at all.

N has sent me two written policies after we chatted via email and I gave her some feedback. Su helped me with the floorplan during one of the meetings but that turned out to be fruitless. Sa made an effort to figure out the timeline and also found the NNW location. Apart from those times, I feel as if the effort being given is extremely unsatisfactory. D suggested that I do some of the work on my own, but don't tell anyone that I've done it, then see how they react. Also that I should be really clear with what each person is being expected to do, document it, then I have proof and a back-up if they don't do it. It might possibly be that the others are just seeing that I'm doing the work and so aren't bothering to make much of an effort.

I asked multiple times for feedback and assistance with developing the demographics. I have received none. I'm a bit lost with the demographics and how much information, and what information, to actually include. I'm unsure if the things I've put in are actually relevant or not. It was supposed to be done as of 16/12, but it's not. I need to review it and I still need feedback but I'm fed up with asking anyone for any help.

The floor plan and details of each room is supposed to be done by the 6th of January. No floor plan has been done except for the one that Su said she was going to do, which she didn't. I have made one with assistance from my partner, but it doesn't have enough practical detail at the moment. Each group member needs to take responsibility for a room and design the details of it (not including measurements – these are done already), then we need to come back together and collaborate on the details and final plan.

Policies are a massive headache for me at the moment. As per the timeline, they are to be completed by the 27th. I've completed a hygiene/infection control policy and a staff supervision/ratio policy. Su has taken responsibility for the evacuation/responding to emergency policy and the responding to illness/injury policy. M has said she will do the sunscreen/outdoor protection policy and the confidentiality policy. N has given me rough drafts of her policies (food handling and placement policies) which is fantastic. We still need OHS policies as I've already mentioned in several of the emails (to no response) and a policy that covers the indoor-outdoor space requirements and furniture suitability policies.

In regards to the advertising flyer, it should be done by the 17th of February. I said I could do the advertising flyer in an earlier meeting. I'm sort of enjoying doing it, because I like working with graphics and design and with computers. But all the fun is being sucked out of it by the stress and lack of support and feedback. I should be able to get feedback and support.

The staff booklet is a horrible nightmare to me. I'm trying to work on it and approach it but I have no idea what kind of information to include in it. It's not due on the timeline until March, though.

The job advertisement and budget are going to be impossible. I'm really worried about how to do the budget. I'm bad at maths and those kinds of things and I don't expect I'll be getting any help from anyone.

The end of the timeline is March 21st and the assignment is due by the end of the course, so some time in May or June. So that's 10-15 weeks. Each part of the assignment could have a possible 2 extra weeks than is planned on the deadline. 

/endrant

Stomach Thinspo

To start my blog off here's some gorgeous girls with beautiful, flat, skinny stomachs. Unfortunately I don't know who any of these girls are...if you know, then comment and I'll put in photo credit in for them.
Riley xx